Conspiracy

If there's someone out there who is all out to make my life miserable, he/she has already achieved it. I am seriously tired of all these crap tat i've been receiving in life. If u find tat stepping over my head is fun, pls get a picnic mat, find a spot and stay there, stop walking all over alr! When being nice is not the only option to make others reciprocate tis gesture back, then i guess there's no point in being a good person anymore.

Ever since when i'm a primary sch kid, i was often picked on; by my fellow classmates and probably 1 or 2 teachers. I almost felt like i'm a giant walking 'Mistake' who had been born to b picked on. People look at me like a freaking ghost and will stay away from me as much as they could, unless i'm somehow useful to them. I remembered there was once i've made a girl cried by doing...nothing. That girl walked to me and then ran off crying and telling everyone i bullied her. Tat was really fucked up back then. Do u know how traumatizing was tat for a primary school kid?!

Not too long after when i entered secondary school, life didn't really get any better. There were always people out who seemed to enjoy being an audience of my depressed life. I still get the occasion teasing and mocking by my classmates and not forgetting tat totally fucked-up P.E teacher Raja, whom as a teacher had always said nasty things to me. The worst one i had was before i graduate from school and 1 of my classmate came up to me and confront me, asking me y did i say that her younger sister underwent a plastic surgery to make her boobs bigger. I find tat amusing as i don't hav any intention of making fun of ppl whom i don't know, besides i don't joke about things like tat. Probably i would had laughed if not for the atmosphere back then. Later then i found out from her that one of my CCA junior, Jasper, had put words in my mouth for some reason to sow discord between me and my classmate. Weird thing was i didn't even remember having bad blood with him, if it was a prank, it was really badly pulled.

Then recently i had someone getting all upset of me becos i posted something on FB which was meant to b a joke. Probably he was having a bad mood tat day so he rant at me which somehow seemed to b my fault over a small thing.

There are still many more examples which i don't think i would wanna mention. What i wanna convey here is tat, i'm a human as well. I DO NOT DESERVE THIS KIND OF RIDICULOUS TREATMENT. Before you wanna get all upset or blow ur top at me, pls think how would i had felt at tat time. I am not some toilet paper who can b used and thrown away after tat. If you don't think of me as a friend or even a person, pls FUCK OFF, seriously enough is enough alr, thx.