I'm a driver too!

I'm finally a full fledge class 3 driver le, yay! Today's test in short is just too scary, route was ok and the whole driving part was quite a success until the ending part, my heart almost came out from my mouth and my brain almost got squeezed out from my ears. After i've completed the whole course of the circuit and route 4, i was ordered to park my vehicle back at the driving center and follow the tester back to the tester's office for evaluation, so as the tester just step out of the car, i forgot to turn my gear to neutral and pull my handbrake and happily released the clutch and foot brake causing the vehicle to jerk and stall. The tester just look at me with those killer eyes and i know i'm in deep shit, most probably causing myself to fail just becos of tis stupid mistake. But the tester is kind enough to let me pass! yay! Thank u goddess of mercy! yay!

Anyway, it's slightly more than a month b4 i ORD and it just seems like forever, but to think of it, it's still a big world out there, wondering wat i should do in the later part of my life...

Cheese Prata Boy

Had a badminton challenge of the 'millenium' with ming chuen the pancake boy and i lost, damn sad, but at least i sweat quite alot of fats out today. So i got pawned by him and thus got the title of prata boy, saded. After i've got fatter i notice tat i'm not as agile as i used to b when i'm still doing my cq duty, cos i hav to sweat alot every single day, really hav to go for some serious workout soon, but donno when.

This is just some random entry. So random...

I-Stranger

Wonder wat's happening to me tis few days, seems like i'm getting more and more prone to getting pissed off and blowing my top off. It's like i'm going to explode anytime and just shout at the ppl who pisses me off. Wonder wat's becoming over me, it's like my evil angry twin just came out and took over me and i feel like it's getting harder and harder to control over my temper. Think things at home isn't any better, i suppose it's due to the fact tat i'm spending lesser and lesser time at home, with my mom and dad, i feel more drifted apart from them. I just wanted to feel less important to them, the more they wan to rely on me, the more i feel like running away from them (not literally though). It's not really healthy but it's just tat i feeling very chained up and need a space to breath, tat's y i need my own space, a place for me to truely get some air. Feeling very tired but at the same time guilty to the things i've did and said to my parents but i just can't help it, i need some help, but who will help me and who can help me?

2 days of fun filled entertainment

Ever hav the tot of visiting all the tourism sites in singapore? Well, not really for me but it's definitely fun to go out and chill for the day or 2 with friends who u can really enjoy with.

Starting with yesteday's night safari trip. The theme for tis month is halloween so the whole night safari is deco with interesting halloween items (duh), staffs there are dressed in costumes for the event as well. We reached night safari at bout 8+ so we didn't really hav much time to walk bout. We head straight to take the tram ride which they divide into 2 route; the so-call PG and M18 routes. PG route will b the normal non-scary sight-seeing with flowery background suitable for all ages, whereas the M18 route will b normal ride with scary narration and something else which i won't say, try it to find out! The thing i don't like about the 1st half of the trip is tat there are 2 girls sitting beside me keep KBKP about the tram ride bein not scary and saying it out loud in a extreme vulgur manner (roll eyes and shake head), 'fun' doesn't stop here, some bengs behind where we were sitting were also making loads of noise, felt really ashame of being singaporean for tat moment. So we got to see benjamin in his most unglam and pls-stop-the-tram-cos-i'm-damn-scared look, so i got quite entertained by that to the extent tat i'm laughing the entire trip when i see the look on benjamin's face. It's classic, lol! After tat is the animal show, wat i've to say is that the mc is damn good, in the sense tat she bothers to make sure tat the audiences are into the show and hav alot of interaction with us, good job!

Continuing my journey the next day to sentosa with my ARC maties, we had another fun-filled day in sentosa for free (well, most of the sites lah). Places we went to includes underwater world, which doesn't really hav much to see, mayb it's bcos the 1st time i went there is when i'm still small and young tat's y everything seems so big. Dolphin lagoon, where there are freaking lot of ppl standing around, so we didn't really get to see the dolphins clearly, we manage to see the dolphins jumping out of the water though, the rest of the show is just seeing other ppl's butt. 4D magix and cine blast, the show tat is just so funny tat the jap/korean guy sitting beside me keep laughing throughout the show, kinda scary, other than tat is just seeing how meiling screams and tuck her legs up cos she is so scared of the effects (tat includes shini also). The cine blast issn't tat fun though and we hav to pay for it, saded, but it's nice to meet the 3 eygptian guys who were queuing behind us, didn't know they were eygptians until one of them told me cos they are totally not wat i've imagine they would dress like; like wat the movies always shows, guys wearing some funny head dress and a skirt. haha. Luge and sky ride, we manage to get matching helmets for our shirts, we sure look hot in it, pisssssssss (hot smoke rising). As usual, meiling didn't know how to 'drive' properly so she had some minor accidents like driving into the grass patch and knocking onto the kerb of the course, other than tat it's still ok and i manage to reach the bottom 1st!

So our day in sentosa ended and we head to vivo for our dinner, was feeling so hungry tat i can't feel my stomach anymore. So heading down to cityhall, we make our way to the singapore flyer, by walking...dotz. Kinda far though but we still manage to reach there by 8p.m and catch the 'flight', another trip free! They make it such tat ur experience there is like taking a flight from the airport, and they really know how to 'con' ppl's $$ since we still hav to buy the photo we took b4 taking the flyer which is $15 per piece, dotz.

So our day ended late but worth it, it's like going out for a $200 trip but only pay $30, so cool!

p.s Janice tis is for u; we had hell lota fun today, too bad u weren't there!, muahahhaha!

Stale brain disease

Went out with Ben and Jo today to check the prices for our unconfirm trip to ???. The price is alittle shocking though, so it's been put on hold yet again. I hav a feeling tat we might end up at most just having a chalet trip in sg instead of going overseas due to many reasons like ppl not interested of going to certain countries, budget probs and some other unknown reasons.

After tat we went to Douby ghout to hav some sushi at The Cathay, it's really not tat bad though, cheap and edible, wonder y ppl keep on critising it. Oh ya, and the kung fu tea was really great, just alittle too sweet though but still drinkable.

And so i went home at around 4+ and did a bounce from cityhall to marina bay so tat i can hav a seat to sleep. It issn't a great experience though since i tot i've overslept but in fact i didn't so i got down at the wrong stop (admiralty mrt) and hav to take the mrt back from sembawang to woodlands again, think i should hav my brain checked so tat i'm not tat blur and forgetful, bleah~

Did a little wasting $$ trip at sportslink after i manage to get myself back to woodlands, bought a ankle/wrist weight to train myself together with a dozen of shuttlecocks and a badminton net so tat i can happily play in camp without loaning them from pti, cost like more than 1/10 of my pay, saded. The bad thing bout the weights is tat it's US size, i wonder how many asians hav thick ankles and wrists? Not me though tat's for sure. Need to do more exercise, getting fatter le, argh!

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A lot of time, we look at things from our point of view so we can't see it from other's perspective. Often you won't know how people think of you and there will/might b times even when you know tat u are flawed but u just wanna deceived the only person that u can trust the most, yourself. I felt like i've been stabbed once again from the back by tat someone when i tot tat everything is alright, seems like everything is still the same. It's either there's a major problem with my judgemental skill or tat someone is just too well versed in his acting skills, making me believe tat i could trust him but well, i'm wrong. Sad, disappointed once again but hav gotten used to it. Felt like a slap from a stranger, totally freaking ridiculous.

Sometimes it's really better for words not to be heard, and words tat aren't supposed to be said should always try to b contained in anyways to prevent any damages, b it minor or major, cos it's just darn disgusting. Disgusting in a sense tat y bother making the effort to wait for others to relay the 'info' rather than telling the person straight in the face? Anyway, chances had been given so many countless times and since it's not taken used of, y bother creating so much unnecessary whinnings and 'griefs'? I'm totally speechless for all the actions tat someone had did and his attitute, *shake my head*. All the best for him and hopefully he can find happiness in his life. Haiz.

70 going on 0

After today, i'll b left with 70 days and finally, i can see the light (not tat i'm going to cross over though, haha). Something had been troubling me for these few days and i can't really sort things out properly inside my mind, feels as if my head is burning. Things tat had been coming back over and over again whenever i felt worn out. It's always there and will never go away. Bleah~

While playing Kingdom hearts II yesterday, there's tis phrase tat one of the character says which i find it very meaningful which goes something like tis, 'It doesn't really matter if we hav to b with each other all the time, wat matters the most is how often we think of each other when we are not together.' Miss my ninja buddies so much, miss my simple eat, sleep, exercise, dio tekan life in tekong, miss having no worries and living simple but definitely not kenny the black baaaaaaaaaa~

It's really amazing how ppl can change over a short period of time, whether intentionally or unintentionally, b it me or others. There's a thing i don't know how to say but it's like ppl tries very hard to get back the lives they use to hav in the past, like all the simplicity and the innocence we used to hav but the harder they try, they make things worst. Donno y i'm writing tis thing here, just feeling really drunk after a very filling dinner and a cup of plain water. I'm just hoping all the buzzing in my head will go away soon. Feeling so tired, as always...

Emo freaking...like?

Guess in life there's always interesting things happening making it entertaining and mayb over entertaining till a point that u find it alittle overboard, that's when things goes wrong and everything will just become a bad joke. It's not always smooth sailing in life and like wat my Ninja OC used to say, 'What doesn't kill you, makes you stronger'. Be it emotionally or physically, there will sure b times when u felt that u r so vulnerable and tired tat u can't go on anymore. That's when we hav to take it as another step to growing up and that is y i hav started hating my birthday and not celebrating it when i realised tat it's THE day that reminds u tat, 'Hey, u r officially 1 yr older, start carrying more responsiblities onto ur load!'.

For me, ever since i've been in NS, i've learnt to b able to b more independent mentally, tat's wat i think though, hopefully. It's thru those stupid shitty incidents tat makes me feel tat ppl are always not trustworthy, even though they might b ur friends, u could never know wat they think while putting on their mask to protect themselves since everyone is afraid to get hurt. It's because of tis i've decided not to hav 'BFFs' like how Ben used to hav and is still having, lol. Ironically, it's better to hav a good friend than a best friend since u can let go of all ur feelings e-zier rather than to hav a hard time getting over something senseless. Might b b'cos of tat bad experience, or those bad experiences tat changes my belief?

People tends to forget things, things tat seems rather not important but is important to people aroudn them. This happens when people take things for granted. Might b accidental or mayb on purpose since they think tat it's a 'I-CARE-FOR-MYSELF' world out there and so they might as well adapt to it. If they don't appreciated it, they will lose it eventually, whatever the 'it' is to them. For me, my 'it' is my family, i always loved them but doesn't really seems to spend much time with them either, quality time though, donno how and helplessly clueless. Well, had a funny feeling when my mommy says tat my face got alittle rounder just now, it's a good and bad news for me though; good news i've grown a little meaty so ppl won't say i'm thin, bad news is, i'm fat. LOL.

Finally, to sum up, did CQ duty during the last 3 days duty, freaking tiring. Went to play LAN with XZ, Mel, BZ, Gong, JJ, Max, JS, EK and LS for 4hrs, total cost $9 and a cab fee of $18.20 to my HSH (Home Sweet Home). Feeling so broke even though i've gotten the GST offset from our dear dear government. Saded. Hope things goes well in camp till ORD. Bleah~