Last day of 2008

It's been awhile since i've last blogged, mayb u guys tot tis blog is already dead, or me? LOL. It's jus tat i'm lazy tat's all.

Well, time really flies cos it's been over 2 weeks since i've ORD-ed and the whole holiday trip passed by jus like tat, seemingly to be less than a day but nevertheless it's a fruitful but rush one (other than the part where i've lost my hp, which is totally a bad exp). Guess tat the part where i still can't get used to is tat I WON'T BE GETTING PAIED ON THE 10TH OF EVERY MONTH!

New journey awaits and those going to study will be registering their unis soon (mayb some working as a part timer 1st, while others jus rot at home?), those planning to work for a few years 1st will be b-z looking for a perm job like me.

I went for a job interview yesterday and the interview by the HR manager is quite a surprising one. At 1st she asked me to fill in a particular form and walked out, so i was happily taking my own sweet time to fill it up and she appeared like 2 mins later asking me how come i'm writing so slowly. So she passed me another 3 sheets of papers and asked me to complete in 15mins time. Out of the 3, one of it was 'spot the differences', the other 2 was asking me for my opinion on downloading music from the internet (1 in Eng and the other was CHINESE, both required me to write in less than 50 words, lucky shit). I almost died while doing the chinese ver of the so-call composition, it's been like 4 yrs since i've even writen something or anything in chinese (good thing is i still how to write my chinese name, LOL). The interview result for myself was alittle disappointing but then as wat my sis had said, 'take it as a learning exp rather than going there having the i-must-and-i-will-hav-to-get-tis-job kinda attitude'. If all goes well i'll b starting job soon, if not i might be considering going to join SPF, not a bad thing either. Well, let's jus see wat will become of me, haha.

Today is the eve of new year, hope tat the next yr will be a better one (even though it's like things get worst every yr). Hope tat everyone hav their dreams come true (esp me!) and stay healthy always! HAPPY NEW YEAR 2009!

My wishlist for next yr:
Getting ALOT ALOT ALOT ALOT ALOT ALOT AND ALOT OF MOOLA!
Getting alive and become a YES-Man
Getting more than 10k in my bank (IT'S NOT IMPOSSIBLE!!! Hopefully)

Sian-ness

Few more hours before Joseph Tay's concert @ Victoria concert hall, hopefully i won't b bored to tears or in worst case starting to fall asleep while he is singing his Christmas Carol.

Tomorrow will be the Genting trip tat i've been waiting for. It isn't a perfect one but hopefully it won't b disastrious (i.e non-stop quarrelling, endless unhappiness, etc) since the pre-trip isn't already a smooth one to start with. Lastly, hopeful tis won't b my last blog entry (cos recently there's a Grassland bus jus overturn itself, somehow, on the way back to Singapore from Malaysia). Guan Ying Ma Bo Bi!

ORD loh!

The previous day i did tot of staying in camp for the last time in other to spend more time with my camp mates and friends but abandoned the tots since i only reached home at 12a.m. Didn't really expect to finish our gathering tat late but still, it's good to meetup with my ninja maties.

Slept for 4 hrs and go to camp at the usual time, feeling really shag but excited as well. It's the day i've been waiting for ever since i came into tis unit. Watching batch by batch go and batch by batch posted in means tat my ORD is coming soon but didn't expect to b TAT soon. Well, 'old don't go, new won't come', so kinda accepted it (anyway it's a no choice thing).

The first thing i did when i went to camp is to start pasting the magnets at the 'respective' cupboards. Waited for the clerks to come to camp so we can get our final 3 signatures on the clearence form. The moment when i got my pink IC, i smiled cos the feeling was like seeing ur old friend after 2 yrs, tat 2 yrs of waiting. At the same time it marks the end of my NSF life, it's kinda sad to leave ppl i know in camp but at least i didn't get emotional turmoils unlike 'someone', haha. Just like wat those ORD-ed personnels had said, air feels different and everything just felt so light and slow. The feeling of being unchained and the freedom is just undescribable, until the day u ORD, u will never know how it's like and it's a good feeling.

After that andy drove me to chevron emart to clear my credits, gotten myself a pair of shades and it looks cool! Joined the dota gang for gaming sessions and went to novena for a ssc12 gathering. The nunmber who turned up was quite disappointing but we still went ahead with the plan of going to a steamboat buffet. For me, the buffet isn't realy nice, mayb becos of hav the stressed of being so broke yet coming to spend so much when i don't really can afford it. Took a few mouth of tang hoon and left, freaking wasting money when i come to think of it. So i rush off to chevron and join them for alittle drinking session. Didn't drink much though (mayb a mug combining long xiao ji's and melvin's leftover beer) and left. Shdn't hav gone to the steamboat though cos i felt freaking guilty for joining my plt mates so late and leaving my them so early due the the fact that i don't hav money to spend on cabs anymore so i hav to rush off to catch the last train. As for the steamboat gathering, almost pang seh-ed them cos i'm really low in budget and i hate borrowing money from others.

Now tat i've ORD, time to start being serious and throwing my childish side away. It's a harsh and cruel world out there from now on!

p.s Money is jus the root of all freaking evil

New start, and life goes on

People in India says, if u release 1 pigeon, u get good luck, the more u release, the more luck u get. I guess i shd b striking 4D soon, cos almost 20 ppl release pigeons for me, the highest record i had ever encountered, haha.

Day started off with me supposedly meeting up with yanjie, ryan, zijun, yong zhen and jing xiang for rockclimbing at yishun safra. Weather was totally too screw up for any outdoor activities so zijun pang seh-ed cos of tat. Ryan had a little hang over so he pang seh-ed. Yanjie overslept and he claims tat he isn't feeling well so he pang seh-ed as well. So we tot tat we can try indoor rockclimbing so i suggested going to climb adventure as they provides tat kind of facility. However they closed down their place at tanjour pagar and moved to balestier, so we made an empty trip. Having the need to meet my BMT maties afterwards at around 2, i hav no choice but to ask them to go again another day.


Made my way to Douby Ghout and found out tat only 2 turned up (there were more who turned up later as well). Tried calling others and there are only 2 outcomes; don't wanna come or jus don't wanna pick up the call. It's a little disappointing though for those who don't even bother to notify me when they are not coming though. The gathering isn't wat i've expected but it didn't turn out as bad as i've initially tot. There are awkward moments when we don't really hav topics to tok about but i didn't regret meeting up with them. And it's definitely good to hear from them tat everyone is still doing well, they prep me for my ORD as well in the sense tat we are all the same so i don't feel as sad and uncertain as before. Even though there are still uncertainties which are undeniable, i'm more or less being able to cope with that alittle by alittle cos it's not the end of the world and life still goes on from where we stop after we graduated.

Jus a few more hrs b4 i collect my IC, had a wonderful catch up with friends and brothers. 2years to think back isn't really tat long. I remember tat the 1st day when i got enlisted i was only 20yrs old and now 22 going 23. This 2 years is just the time for us to be unreal for the time being or rather time for us to think of wat we shd b doing after tat (for those who actually does think about it). Now 2 yrs had passed, it's time to snap out of everything and get ready to pick up from where we last land our feet on the society.


Rushed through the whole of saturday to finish the magnets cos i know tat i won't hav time for today. A way to show my appreciation to my camp mates and friends and mayb a way to force to to remember me and tat i've been in tuas before, haha.

p.s 'The day earth stood still' shd change it's name to either 'The day alien came to earth, had a little killing spree and left' or 'The day u drop ur jaws in dismay after watch such a no ending movie'

End?

It's jus another 24hrs away to 15 dec, can't believe THE day is finally coming. I wouldn't say it's an end but like wat everyone else said, it's a new beginning.

I won't wanna b greedy but i do hope tat during the 2yrs of my previous chapter would mould me into a better person, making me into a more mature and understanding person. Even though there are unhappiness during the 2yrs (not throughout though, happy things do exist), we are already trained to face and handle it. When u are faced with anyone who doesn't isn't genuine in the 1st place, u don't hav to invest too much time with them. Ultimately, u don't need to hav a best friend cos the most important thing is people around u are true to u, not just faking around trying to leech something from u, after tat dump u away like a piece of trash, banishing u to hell depth and never ever wanna hav any strings with u anymore, which is just pathetic.

Nevertheless, 2 yrs isn't very long nor is it very short since we had already gone thru so much shit, b it mentally or physically, i still hope tat the 'real' world outside still hav some warm and sunshine for me.

6 days to Genting, less than 24hrs to ORD.

Lost in time, speechless and clueless

It had been so long since i last blog, seems like i've already lost my momentum in doin it. However once i start, i feel like i've a million things to say bout just tat i donno where to start from.

Seems to me tat it's jus skeptical to call ppl in camp 'friends' cos time jus brings out a person's true colour no matter how well they hide themselves behind tat 'i'm-politically-correct' mask. Well, even i hav one and i got it for free, the fact tat ppl hav tis mask to make sure others around don't really get hurt or hav a minimal impact when something 'evil' is being done onto them. The main thing about tis issue is how the person looks like behind the mask. I've jus seen a few of the ugly faces tat some ppl can hav, guess tat tis is jus the prelude to the 'real' world. Wonder if my heart can take anymore of tis kind of 'shocks'. Mayb i'm not the best person to comment on tis thing but i don't remember bringing any harm to anyone (cos being evil is not my forte and i'm seriously honest about it) other than those i thought to deserve it and as a matter of fact they really do. Since those people choose to b doing things that are inconsiderate or rather 'hurtful' then so b it, cos u are not them and u can't change wat they think.

ORD-ing isn't jus about freedom and pink ic, it jus bring along a wave of emotion surge to me. Frankly speaking, i'm not exactly very happy to ORD (ppl might think tat i'm crazy, jus wait till u ORD and u will find out). It's true tat being able to sleep in bunk the whole day jus to wait for someone to do clearence for u or to collect documents from ur superiors is jus the best thing tat could hav happen in the whole NS life, but i don't expect my ORD to turn out to b something tat is jus so anti-climax as wat i used to tot it would b. Sad to say, some camp mates will always remain as camp mates. Wat stays in camp will always remains in camp, guess tat ORD jus bring an end to not jus ur national service, it also brings an end to friends (or should i say fake friendship tat never had been there b4?), a friendship tat never last. All the 'we-shall-keep-in-contact' will jus stay in camp, some didn't even bother to say goodbye, how great can tat b?

People just change due to situations they faced. I think it's because we had never faced anything 'earthshaking or sky breaking' before throughout our unit life tat's y we are not bonded. Bonded in the sense tat we will b there for each other, or someone wanting to b there for another cos they want to not need to. No matter wat i still think tat BMT life is and had always been the best time through my 2 yrs full-time job. We get screwed like shit, treated like shit but we bonded like brothers. It's a hard to explain thing but i think friends doesn't need to b together, always, but should b in our heart forever, tat is wat my definintion of a friend.

When one shows others his true self, people will still see him as someone fake. Ironically, things always happen as vice versa, people will tend to believe wat is 'tot to b true' and ignoring the raw truth. It doesn't bring us very far and it just shows how superficial people can get. It's jus plain saddening, disappointing and disgusting for them to judge like tat since they don't even know others well and all the criticisms were jus bullshit and unconstructive. Rather to get angry and sad with them, y not jus ignore and move on? Staying at the same spot will jus make urself getting hurt more. I've jus realised tat i'm jus too afraid to make the 1st step in a new phase. I jus hav too much fear to start off and it jams up my brain big time. I only hav a week or so to make my decision and it hav to and must b a good one, gotta flush out everything and make sure tis time things work out rite!

Helplessly Frustrated

It seems to me the more i drive, the worst i get. Today dad took me to the carpark to learn how to park properly but the parking session doesn't really go as well. It's either i park the lorry in the middle of 2 parking lots or jus making it end up damn slanted. However dad didn't flare up on me or anything, he jus tries his best to giv me guide lines so i can park better, tis is something i really hav to compliment about, his patience towards me is superb. I've already being extrememly frustrated about the fact tat no matter wat i do i jus keep on making it worst. Argh, i jus need more practices, i won't know wat will happen to my driving license.

Little Man

Went for a walk-in job interview today with my newly bought formal wear which cost almost $200 (so ex) but got rejected due to 1cm short of my height. Not exactly sad or disappointed, just rather having heartaches over the $$ part, haha. Think it's pretty obvious wat kind of job interview i went to and i went with Benjamin who managed to get into round one since he is tall enough. However both of us went back 'defeated'.

After tat met up with Joseph Tay to book our Genting trip in dec. I'm so freaking broke now, even b4 i ORD i can feel the stress over my finacial status already, how scary...

No matter wat, Genting here i come (in dec)! T_T

Help!

I don't wanna ORD, yet, nor i wanna extend my ORD, feeling really scared now, what to do without a job or studying????

1st official driving

Dad allowed me to drive his company's lorry jus now and it's kinda fun and scary at the same time. I still hav a long way to go b4 i can really conquer the road in sg, trying to get use to his lorry as well, kinda hard to drive esp without the aid of the rear view mirror, more excuses coming up...

Eariler in the day while in camp, i had blood test together with Arthur, Benjamin and Mensono, it's quite a funny exp. We requested for Issac the senior medic but sadly he went to take his IPPT. So we can only ask for another medic to draw our blood for us. I was the headstart and the whole process was a smooth one, somehow i keep on laughing while the medic tries to draw the blood out, lol, it's a one time blood draw unlike Arthur's, who went second. His blood didn't really got drawn into the syringe after a few tries but stopped after it's half full so he hav to draw again, poor him, haha. When it's Benjamin's turn i try to scare him and i think it worked. Seeing the TERRIFIED AND SCARED face was quite rewarding, lalala. After awhile Jian wen, Robert, Wei Zhi and Jing Xiang came. Jing Xiang got the same exp as Arthur, damn sad. The funny thing was tat he keep on saying "Ai ya, ai ya" while the medic tries to find the correct vein and position so tat the blood can b drawn and a lot of time was just air coming out.

ORD is coming really close, it's just a happy-sad-worry feeling mixed and blended feeling for me. To me, it feels like i'm going to lose my 1st full time job and after i get my pink IC, i'll b perm jobless, wat can i afterwards?

A-Hole-lic ppl and their stupid thinkings

Mr. Z asked me a dumb qn today when i kind heartedly asked him whether if he wanted to develop photos since i'll b doing it for others. He asked me whether he hav to pay for it. I almost blow up and hav the urge to freaking slap his face, kept my cool and told him tat there are no free lunches in this world. I've seriously never and haven't discriminate chinese from China b4 until recently due to all those negative news hav been all piling since donno when about people from China doing all the shitty stuff to poison or to bring harm to other people via food, clothings and u-name-it-they-hav-it. I don't really understand what they are thinking in their minds. It's jus so common to stereotype bad things with the chinese now whenever there are any news report regarding food poisoning or hp batteries exploding, etc. Hopefully Mr. Z can change his ways of not being a greedy and petty a-hole if not he will jus b discriminated by the others soon enough when they get to know him.

Jus visited Stomp.com.sg and got so amused by other A-hole-lic ppl in Singapore. Jus laughed out loud and totally speechless about their behaviour, freaking owning...

One great example -> http://singaporeseen.stomp.com.sg/singaporeseen/viewContent.jsp?commentPageNo=1&id=41059#comment, best part is, there are still lots more ugly ppl and their ugly acts, just go and entertain urself while covering ur mouth in shocked and shaking ur head...

GEMS - Giving Extra More Shit

I had a really unpleasant experience today while trying to develop my photos in causeway point just now. The shop tat i always goes to (Standard Photo #01-13), to develop my photos hav the worst shop assistants ever. Not just tat they are unhelpful, they are also impatience and don't value their customers. One very good example is tat i always see tat they are not very willing to attend to customers in distress when they are unsure of how to get their photos printed or uploaded into the computer at the stations. The shop assistants' answers to the customers question will always just a few words (i.e "just press tis, ya lah ya lah") and worst of all having the stop-asking-or-bother-me kind of attitute.

What i've unhappy about their service is bcos of a small request that i wanted from them but got turned away in a straight no tone by the shop assistants when they don't even hav the intention of helping in anyways. Cos i was having a slight problem with the picture exposure for one of the camp photo, i requested if i could hav a test print for just 2 of the same photos but with diff exposure settings so i can hav a comparison on which photo is better. The shop assistants insisted i hav to pay $3 for the printing charge even though i told them i will b printing a whole lot more photos later once i've decide on which photo exposure is the best. Since they are so sticking to their "rules", i hav no choice but to just walk out of the shop and find another alternative.

I went downstairs to B1 and there is another photo developing shop (Photopress #B1-39), so i went in and asked the same qn, hoping not to get the same kind of response from them. Indeed, they agreed so i had my test prints without having the need of paying extra charges other than the fee for developing the 2 photos. They bended their "rule" of having the need of paying an extra charge if u print less than a certain amount of photos from their machine (not those instant ones though) which made me quite impressed. After that i asked if i could look at how the pictures look like b4 it is bring mass printed and they agreed as well, had a couple of reprints but they are still willing to adjust the photos for me. End of the day, i still get a 10% discount from them due to the great amount of pictures printed (total cost $100.35). Good job, well done and i can say i will never ever wan to step foot on Standard photo anymore due to the fact tat their service and HR sux to the core.

Ultimately, i feel tat in service line it's either u giv ur customers an extra mile service making them extra happy, extra valued or u giv them an extra more shitty feeling. For me, i've experienced the ends of both world within 10 minutes. Jus wanting to ask, is GEMS out there just to show off or r the people in this industry really practising it? What's the use of having GEMS when we consumers are still receving this kind of standards? Hopefully staffs at Standard Photo will not regret their actions and still remember that they do not monopolise the photo developing industry and thus tone down their yaya-papaya attitute. Argh!

Radios in heaven?

Went to visit my grandma's and uncle's tablet today at mandai, was happy to see that so many ppl attended, even my aunt who had divorced with my uncle and my cousins attended. Well, today is my grandma's 1st death anniversary. I can still remember, few weeks before today last yr was the worst days i hav had in my life. It's the days where i hope that i don't receive any phone calls and even so those tat i received were not from any of my family members, having the fear of hearing tat my hospitalized grandma had passed away. Without leave or off left i can only try begging for superiors for E-off, which i don't really think is quite possible to get at tat time and had heard nasty comments from one of my superior as well be it intentional or not when i had to rush down to the hospital to see my grandma for probably the last time as her condition was critical. My PS at tat time didn't really help me much and it's really disappointing.

Today at mandai, i had a thought, and i'm fear of death. Fearing to see ppl i loved leave earlier than me. Death in the sense tat u will hav to witness everyone u know leaving tis earth one by one before u can stop watching and feel the pain. Mayb there will b a day tat u won't feel anything anymore after seeing so many funerals, but y will ppl still cry even though they know tat it's a natural course tat everyone will take?

To grandma,
if there are radios in heaven, i want to ask the DeeJay to tell you everyone is doing fine and we all misses u, thanks for the days u spend with me, protecting me. Hope tat u r living just fine on the other side and pls take care of urself. Hopefully u can hear me from the radio and wish u healthy, always.
From Xiang.

I'm a driver too!

I'm finally a full fledge class 3 driver le, yay! Today's test in short is just too scary, route was ok and the whole driving part was quite a success until the ending part, my heart almost came out from my mouth and my brain almost got squeezed out from my ears. After i've completed the whole course of the circuit and route 4, i was ordered to park my vehicle back at the driving center and follow the tester back to the tester's office for evaluation, so as the tester just step out of the car, i forgot to turn my gear to neutral and pull my handbrake and happily released the clutch and foot brake causing the vehicle to jerk and stall. The tester just look at me with those killer eyes and i know i'm in deep shit, most probably causing myself to fail just becos of tis stupid mistake. But the tester is kind enough to let me pass! yay! Thank u goddess of mercy! yay!

Anyway, it's slightly more than a month b4 i ORD and it just seems like forever, but to think of it, it's still a big world out there, wondering wat i should do in the later part of my life...

Cheese Prata Boy

Had a badminton challenge of the 'millenium' with ming chuen the pancake boy and i lost, damn sad, but at least i sweat quite alot of fats out today. So i got pawned by him and thus got the title of prata boy, saded. After i've got fatter i notice tat i'm not as agile as i used to b when i'm still doing my cq duty, cos i hav to sweat alot every single day, really hav to go for some serious workout soon, but donno when.

This is just some random entry. So random...

I-Stranger

Wonder wat's happening to me tis few days, seems like i'm getting more and more prone to getting pissed off and blowing my top off. It's like i'm going to explode anytime and just shout at the ppl who pisses me off. Wonder wat's becoming over me, it's like my evil angry twin just came out and took over me and i feel like it's getting harder and harder to control over my temper. Think things at home isn't any better, i suppose it's due to the fact tat i'm spending lesser and lesser time at home, with my mom and dad, i feel more drifted apart from them. I just wanted to feel less important to them, the more they wan to rely on me, the more i feel like running away from them (not literally though). It's not really healthy but it's just tat i feeling very chained up and need a space to breath, tat's y i need my own space, a place for me to truely get some air. Feeling very tired but at the same time guilty to the things i've did and said to my parents but i just can't help it, i need some help, but who will help me and who can help me?

2 days of fun filled entertainment

Ever hav the tot of visiting all the tourism sites in singapore? Well, not really for me but it's definitely fun to go out and chill for the day or 2 with friends who u can really enjoy with.

Starting with yesteday's night safari trip. The theme for tis month is halloween so the whole night safari is deco with interesting halloween items (duh), staffs there are dressed in costumes for the event as well. We reached night safari at bout 8+ so we didn't really hav much time to walk bout. We head straight to take the tram ride which they divide into 2 route; the so-call PG and M18 routes. PG route will b the normal non-scary sight-seeing with flowery background suitable for all ages, whereas the M18 route will b normal ride with scary narration and something else which i won't say, try it to find out! The thing i don't like about the 1st half of the trip is tat there are 2 girls sitting beside me keep KBKP about the tram ride bein not scary and saying it out loud in a extreme vulgur manner (roll eyes and shake head), 'fun' doesn't stop here, some bengs behind where we were sitting were also making loads of noise, felt really ashame of being singaporean for tat moment. So we got to see benjamin in his most unglam and pls-stop-the-tram-cos-i'm-damn-scared look, so i got quite entertained by that to the extent tat i'm laughing the entire trip when i see the look on benjamin's face. It's classic, lol! After tat is the animal show, wat i've to say is that the mc is damn good, in the sense tat she bothers to make sure tat the audiences are into the show and hav alot of interaction with us, good job!

Continuing my journey the next day to sentosa with my ARC maties, we had another fun-filled day in sentosa for free (well, most of the sites lah). Places we went to includes underwater world, which doesn't really hav much to see, mayb it's bcos the 1st time i went there is when i'm still small and young tat's y everything seems so big. Dolphin lagoon, where there are freaking lot of ppl standing around, so we didn't really get to see the dolphins clearly, we manage to see the dolphins jumping out of the water though, the rest of the show is just seeing other ppl's butt. 4D magix and cine blast, the show tat is just so funny tat the jap/korean guy sitting beside me keep laughing throughout the show, kinda scary, other than tat is just seeing how meiling screams and tuck her legs up cos she is so scared of the effects (tat includes shini also). The cine blast issn't tat fun though and we hav to pay for it, saded, but it's nice to meet the 3 eygptian guys who were queuing behind us, didn't know they were eygptians until one of them told me cos they are totally not wat i've imagine they would dress like; like wat the movies always shows, guys wearing some funny head dress and a skirt. haha. Luge and sky ride, we manage to get matching helmets for our shirts, we sure look hot in it, pisssssssss (hot smoke rising). As usual, meiling didn't know how to 'drive' properly so she had some minor accidents like driving into the grass patch and knocking onto the kerb of the course, other than tat it's still ok and i manage to reach the bottom 1st!

So our day in sentosa ended and we head to vivo for our dinner, was feeling so hungry tat i can't feel my stomach anymore. So heading down to cityhall, we make our way to the singapore flyer, by walking...dotz. Kinda far though but we still manage to reach there by 8p.m and catch the 'flight', another trip free! They make it such tat ur experience there is like taking a flight from the airport, and they really know how to 'con' ppl's $$ since we still hav to buy the photo we took b4 taking the flyer which is $15 per piece, dotz.

So our day ended late but worth it, it's like going out for a $200 trip but only pay $30, so cool!

p.s Janice tis is for u; we had hell lota fun today, too bad u weren't there!, muahahhaha!

Stale brain disease

Went out with Ben and Jo today to check the prices for our unconfirm trip to ???. The price is alittle shocking though, so it's been put on hold yet again. I hav a feeling tat we might end up at most just having a chalet trip in sg instead of going overseas due to many reasons like ppl not interested of going to certain countries, budget probs and some other unknown reasons.

After tat we went to Douby ghout to hav some sushi at The Cathay, it's really not tat bad though, cheap and edible, wonder y ppl keep on critising it. Oh ya, and the kung fu tea was really great, just alittle too sweet though but still drinkable.

And so i went home at around 4+ and did a bounce from cityhall to marina bay so tat i can hav a seat to sleep. It issn't a great experience though since i tot i've overslept but in fact i didn't so i got down at the wrong stop (admiralty mrt) and hav to take the mrt back from sembawang to woodlands again, think i should hav my brain checked so tat i'm not tat blur and forgetful, bleah~

Did a little wasting $$ trip at sportslink after i manage to get myself back to woodlands, bought a ankle/wrist weight to train myself together with a dozen of shuttlecocks and a badminton net so tat i can happily play in camp without loaning them from pti, cost like more than 1/10 of my pay, saded. The bad thing bout the weights is tat it's US size, i wonder how many asians hav thick ankles and wrists? Not me though tat's for sure. Need to do more exercise, getting fatter le, argh!

Untitled 071008

A lot of time, we look at things from our point of view so we can't see it from other's perspective. Often you won't know how people think of you and there will/might b times even when you know tat u are flawed but u just wanna deceived the only person that u can trust the most, yourself. I felt like i've been stabbed once again from the back by tat someone when i tot tat everything is alright, seems like everything is still the same. It's either there's a major problem with my judgemental skill or tat someone is just too well versed in his acting skills, making me believe tat i could trust him but well, i'm wrong. Sad, disappointed once again but hav gotten used to it. Felt like a slap from a stranger, totally freaking ridiculous.

Sometimes it's really better for words not to be heard, and words tat aren't supposed to be said should always try to b contained in anyways to prevent any damages, b it minor or major, cos it's just darn disgusting. Disgusting in a sense tat y bother making the effort to wait for others to relay the 'info' rather than telling the person straight in the face? Anyway, chances had been given so many countless times and since it's not taken used of, y bother creating so much unnecessary whinnings and 'griefs'? I'm totally speechless for all the actions tat someone had did and his attitute, *shake my head*. All the best for him and hopefully he can find happiness in his life. Haiz.

70 going on 0

After today, i'll b left with 70 days and finally, i can see the light (not tat i'm going to cross over though, haha). Something had been troubling me for these few days and i can't really sort things out properly inside my mind, feels as if my head is burning. Things tat had been coming back over and over again whenever i felt worn out. It's always there and will never go away. Bleah~

While playing Kingdom hearts II yesterday, there's tis phrase tat one of the character says which i find it very meaningful which goes something like tis, 'It doesn't really matter if we hav to b with each other all the time, wat matters the most is how often we think of each other when we are not together.' Miss my ninja buddies so much, miss my simple eat, sleep, exercise, dio tekan life in tekong, miss having no worries and living simple but definitely not kenny the black baaaaaaaaaa~

It's really amazing how ppl can change over a short period of time, whether intentionally or unintentionally, b it me or others. There's a thing i don't know how to say but it's like ppl tries very hard to get back the lives they use to hav in the past, like all the simplicity and the innocence we used to hav but the harder they try, they make things worst. Donno y i'm writing tis thing here, just feeling really drunk after a very filling dinner and a cup of plain water. I'm just hoping all the buzzing in my head will go away soon. Feeling so tired, as always...

Emo freaking...like?

Guess in life there's always interesting things happening making it entertaining and mayb over entertaining till a point that u find it alittle overboard, that's when things goes wrong and everything will just become a bad joke. It's not always smooth sailing in life and like wat my Ninja OC used to say, 'What doesn't kill you, makes you stronger'. Be it emotionally or physically, there will sure b times when u felt that u r so vulnerable and tired tat u can't go on anymore. That's when we hav to take it as another step to growing up and that is y i hav started hating my birthday and not celebrating it when i realised tat it's THE day that reminds u tat, 'Hey, u r officially 1 yr older, start carrying more responsiblities onto ur load!'.

For me, ever since i've been in NS, i've learnt to b able to b more independent mentally, tat's wat i think though, hopefully. It's thru those stupid shitty incidents tat makes me feel tat ppl are always not trustworthy, even though they might b ur friends, u could never know wat they think while putting on their mask to protect themselves since everyone is afraid to get hurt. It's because of tis i've decided not to hav 'BFFs' like how Ben used to hav and is still having, lol. Ironically, it's better to hav a good friend than a best friend since u can let go of all ur feelings e-zier rather than to hav a hard time getting over something senseless. Might b b'cos of tat bad experience, or those bad experiences tat changes my belief?

People tends to forget things, things tat seems rather not important but is important to people aroudn them. This happens when people take things for granted. Might b accidental or mayb on purpose since they think tat it's a 'I-CARE-FOR-MYSELF' world out there and so they might as well adapt to it. If they don't appreciated it, they will lose it eventually, whatever the 'it' is to them. For me, my 'it' is my family, i always loved them but doesn't really seems to spend much time with them either, quality time though, donno how and helplessly clueless. Well, had a funny feeling when my mommy says tat my face got alittle rounder just now, it's a good and bad news for me though; good news i've grown a little meaty so ppl won't say i'm thin, bad news is, i'm fat. LOL.

Finally, to sum up, did CQ duty during the last 3 days duty, freaking tiring. Went to play LAN with XZ, Mel, BZ, Gong, JJ, Max, JS, EK and LS for 4hrs, total cost $9 and a cab fee of $18.20 to my HSH (Home Sweet Home). Feeling so broke even though i've gotten the GST offset from our dear dear government. Saded. Hope things goes well in camp till ORD. Bleah~

Untitled 260908

What on earth is happening lately? It's like ppl from everywhere is losing their right state of mind. 1st is Dave Teo, now is Red Bean, crap. Hope he learn his lesson after he is out.

Ugly Singaporean don't giv up seats for elderly, don't let ppl alight 1st from mrt and insisting to force their way into the train door, thinking they are right so they can go around 'tsk-ing' ppl, wat crap is tat seriously? If u don't let ppl alight, how r u suppose to board?

Sianz, i wan a peaceful life, not so colourful tat i can't handle...so to sum up for Benjamin, i would rather wan no friends than having 1 enemy, it's better for me tat way, seriously. Type tis after a day of drama and endlesss interrupted sleep...sianz!

Pissed Man Syndrome

Today, i've truely missed the day when i'm on MC, when i'm at home resting for that 10 days. It's truely peaceful and just get my mind off everything in camp, about tat terrible place and the ppl there. Mayb it's bcos i don't hav enough sleep, mayb it's really tat i can't stand it anymore, i feel like wanting to ord asap, to leave tat place so i don't hav anything to do with tat camp and the ppl there anymore. Just 2 more freaking months and i'll b gone, can't wait for tat day to come. Argh, freaking having PMS now, just giv me my own space and stop disturbing me!

Goodbye to all the ppl who hav been 'nice' to me, goodbye to all the ppl who hav not been there when i need them, goodbye to all the ppl who will and hav forgotten about me, thx alot for everything and i hope we won't see each other again...

Untitled 200908

During tis short period of rest at home other than just eating and sleeping, i've been try to take a step back and think bout things tat are and will b happening in the near future, b it my future or others.

I've been worrying bout things, too late and too much. My studies? Job? Which comes 1st? Whether i should b continuing wat i should study or change into a different field? Things like tat are all caused by the root of evil; money. Without money i couldn't b reckless, wat if i felt tat i've lost interest in the course that i'm studying halfway? What if my family couldn't affort just tat little more extra for my sis if she genuinely wanted to get a degree?

The real deal bout tis issue is that, in life we are at crossroads, at times when we don't hav any help we will just hav to walk on our own until we find the right path, our right path. Mayb we might lost our ways most of the time but we should always try. Our parents are there to help support us mentally and financially to make sure we r ready to set off to the path we hav choosen, but they can't b there all the time and they themselves still hav a path of their own, however it's more or less fixed. So in other words, rich ppl get to their goal faster than poorer ppl cos the poorer ppl still hav to strife hard to get themselves ready to move to the next lvl.

While waiting for my mind to fix on the path that i wan, i'm still wonder which is more impt? Dream job versus Money job. Getting ready and set myself towards my dream job tat might never ever b materialised or just go do something tat i never really wanted to or expect to do? Think that will b the qn tat everyone always or mayb once had in mind, after that they will just giv up and go with the more practical choice. So what will happen to me in the near future? Let's just find out, soon, mayb in the next 2 or 3 yrs?

Fund day out

Yet again i've watch another outstanding movie 'Mamma Mia' today with my camp mates Jo Tay, Jo Mak, Ben Lim, Robert and the ORD-ed Hendry. Sad thing is tat we missed the 1st 15mins of the show due to some cock-ups, haha. The whole show is just fun, light-hearted and makes you wanna start dancing to the groove of the movie. When the dvd is release i'll surely go and get myself a copy, mayb not the premium version though and surely not the China imported ones, lol.

Anyway, before the movie we had steamboat at one of the better 'restaurants' in bugis 'backstreet', and we had my babe Ivan, Jing Xiang and Jian Wen as well for the dinner, it's fun though but puts alot of stress to my wallet, especially the compartment where i put my orange, green and purple notes. T_T

Oh ya, there's also another incident which i felt really ridiculous; i was eating tori Q and so as usual there is bits of the meat went into the 'pit holes' in my gums where my wisdom tooth is taken out, so i was thinking of going to the toilet to flush the debris out. The male toilet was being clean at the moment so i tot i better not stay there since it might obstruct the cleaner. The only place i tot of was the handicap toilet which is FREE-FOR-ALL to use and i went in to do wat i need to do. Then there was tis cleaning auntie standing out starring at me while mopping the floor as if i'm some sick bastard or something. After i'm done, i was walk out and there is tis freaking bitch smiling and saying 'ai yo, nan hai zi ye jing lai zhe li' (guys also come in here), i just ignored her and walk off feeling ridiculated. And i was quite pissed and thinking 'wtf? Didn't she hav eyes to see tat the freaking place is HANDICAP TOILET? Since when they hav rules set for handicap toilet to b used only for females?', tat's totally crap! Stupid aunties, argh!

Hopefully these kind of Singaporeans can start to change themselves for the better since ppl in Singapore is starting to degrade in all kinds of way, as for me is still the same, still as lazy as b4, lol. Can't wait to go hav a proper training b4 i start growing too fat till i can't move. Sianz

No more wisdom...

Had my wisdom teeth (3 of them) extracted today through G.A, it pretty scary while i'm waiting for the op and everything. lol. Well, one very interesting thing about G.A is that i think it just took me 3 sec to knock me out, it's tat powerful, super drama. It's like i lie on the bed and the doctor who is in-charge of putting me to sleep was telling me what he will do during the whole operation, after that he told me he will put me to sleep and might feel a little stinging sensation in my arm. The whole thing starts by having something hot traveling in my arm then my vision becomes watery and i felt asleep.

The whole operation is a success though, just tat my throat hurts quite alot due to the pipe tat is inserted through my nose. Now i don't have the appetite to eat anything becos of it, dotz.

Anyway, hopefully by taking out my wisdom teeth i won't become stupid-ier, lol.

Back in time?

Took off to attend Kelvin's POP today, feeling really excited since I've missed tekong so much, lol...

On the way there everything just bring back the memories when i'm still a chao recruit; the newspaper stand beside pasir ris mrt, the 7 core values printed on the board overhead us along the walkway to the penguin, the penguin alert telling ppl to 'stay seated until the craft is fully secured', the passage where we walk after we alight from penguin, the passing out parade, the march, the 'stand up for Singapore' song, the infantry roar and the cap throwing moments are just plain classics where u can only get it once in a lifetime.

It's also a nice encounter to see teddy there and he still looks as cute as how he looks 1yr 9months ago, haha. However i still feel guilty for borrowing his camera during POP causing him not able to take pictures with his family members, saded, so sorry...


Well, the parade didn't go as well as how it is tot to be; eg the 1st person for falcon 'over marched' making him ended up somewhere further than he should originally b at, and everyone started laughin, dotz...


then 2 men fainted during the parade...







Other than these minor incidents everything still goes according to planned, and it fun taking pictures and so-call 'preserving the memories' tat i've lost forever, even though the recruits inside the pictures issn't related to me, but it's the some kind of experience that i've experienced before. haha :)

Anyways, i'm happy for those who almost cried when the graduated recruits had their parents to put on the jockey cap for them, since it should mean tat their days in tekong wasn't a wasted one. It's somewhere where they had brothers and those unforgettable experience which most likely they don't wan to experience again, just like me, haha. Sad for those who didn't find their 'brothers' and hated tekong though, but serving ns is a must for all the guys though even if u don't like it, so just suck thumb, haha :P







p.s Duty, Honor, Country, Ninja Company!

Incoming operation...

Went to Alexander Hospital yesterday to book my wisdom tooth extraction appointment, seems tat i only got 3 wisdom teeth growing, got 1 MIA, lol. Anyway, appointment is on the 12 of tis month, hopefully nothing goes wrong.

Another 'colourful' Sunday...

Today is just another boring sunday but i did went to comax in suntec as well as summer masuri in vivo. To start off, i overslept till 10+ tis morning (planned to wake up at 9 so i can fix my comp), so i left home bout 12 (suppose to meet up at 12 at cityhall, -_-"). On my way to cityhall, i kena elbow by someone in the train while i was playing monster hunter on the head, so sad...

So when i finally reached cityhall it's already 1p.m, haha, then met up with weiheng, daryl and ming gang and make our way to comax. There issn't alot of interesting things around but there's sure full of ppl squeezing everywhere, sianz. By the time we are done squeezing and being squeezed in comax we make our way to vivo to look at the cosplay event call summer masuri. A real pity is that there isn't many cosplayer and good looking cosplayers around (lucky there's still some, lol). The weather there is freakingly hot and i understands y they wanted to call it summer masuri. I actually felt alittle guilty for not taking photos of the cosplayers that doesn't look very nice, but i guess it's quite understandable for someone to capture nice things/ppl on their camera, shall try to appreciate the hard work and effort of the cosplayers...

After the walking around for 30mins, we went to buy some drinks and then settle down at carl's jr. for some food, and then some monster hunter session and went home, nothing much happening also, lol.

Below are some of the pix i took ->

*I'm not a hardcore anime fan so i'm not sure bout some character the cosplayer are suppose to portray, pai sei

Shocked?

Feeling really weird rite now, didn't know i've posted and create so much blog entries since like donno when, lol, (donno when is like 2005 when i'm still in poly and now i'm ORD-ing in 3 months) time flies i guess, and mayb the next time i read tis blog will b like i'm already working and most probably passed my driving test...

It's been like 2 yrs since i last posted a blog, omg! (staring at my last posted blog makes me so nostalgic, wished i'm still in tekong...)