Went to visit my grandma's and uncle's tablet today at mandai, was happy to see that so many ppl attended, even my aunt who had divorced with my uncle and my cousins attended. Well, today is my grandma's 1st death anniversary. I can still remember, few weeks before today last yr was the worst days i hav had in my life. It's the days where i hope that i don't receive any phone calls and even so those tat i received were not from any of my family members, having the fear of hearing tat my hospitalized grandma had passed away. Without leave or off left i can only try begging for superiors for E-off, which i don't really think is quite possible to get at tat time and had heard nasty comments from one of my superior as well be it intentional or not when i had to rush down to the hospital to see my grandma for probably the last time as her condition was critical. My PS at tat time didn't really help me much and it's really disappointing.
Today at mandai, i had a thought, and i'm fear of death. Fearing to see ppl i loved leave earlier than me. Death in the sense tat u will hav to witness everyone u know leaving tis earth one by one before u can stop watching and feel the pain. Mayb there will b a day tat u won't feel anything anymore after seeing so many funerals, but y will ppl still cry even though they know tat it's a natural course tat everyone will take?
To grandma,
if there are radios in heaven, i want to ask the DeeJay to tell you everyone is doing fine and we all misses u, thanks for the days u spend with me, protecting me. Hope tat u r living just fine on the other side and pls take care of urself. Hopefully u can hear me from the radio and wish u healthy, always.
From Xiang.
1 comment:
I hope u're feeling alright now. What an emotional entry. I guess she'll feel relieved to feel appreciated even though she has moved on. At least, think of it this way that she wont have to suffer the pain and agony anymore.
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