What do you want? Dream or Reality?

End of March is coming and it means one thing; application for SIM is closing. Yet i'm still lost. Lost for what i want in my life.

Probably deep inside i've already know from the start what i want, even though it's a dream and probably yet again it is quite impossible to be fulfilled. After living for so long on earth, it is clear to me now that being hardworking isn't the only element needed to make impossible possible.

No doubt school life is fun but i wouldn't want to get a degree for the sake of getting one. I know i will suffer if i choose to go back to IT becos i've already lost interest in it. I wouldn't wan to follow my cousin's footstep where he chose to study something tat is totally not relevant to wat he had studied in his poly, perhaps becos he jus want the degree for his life in the future. I'm not here to criticise his life or anything but i really hope that he won't waste his parents' money since his school fees are fully paid for by them. In my case, i don't hav the luxury of abusing tis system so it's kinda like i'm choosing my lifelong partner who will b living with me for the rest of my life, and the word divorce will not b found in my dictionary. Same thing goes to studies, i wanna make sure i'm not wasting anymore of my precious time so that i can make full use of it while i'm still young (definition of young in my context: able to move, talk and do things without any restriction).

Wat shd i do? Wat can i really do tis time...?

New news everyday

Recently there hav been a influx of interesting news headlines on the papers tat kept me well entertained. However, despite the constant 'whining' of the commoners, there isn't really much help over those that i am going to share with everybody.

Top news headline: Jack Neo's affairs with 'many many' women.
We will never truely know how many women he had slept with or tried to sleep with. But apparently his wife is very forgiving and she had told Singapore to giv her family blessing as well as not to 'harass' them anymore. During Jack Neo's conference, his wife looked as though she was the one who had 'derailed' in the relationship when in fact is otherwise.

Jack had been on the headline for the past few days already and being famous for the very wrong reason. I suppose the whole of Singapore will b sick of his story in mayb a week or two ba. Where's else to dig about?

New headline number 2: Gays spotted in Clementi MRT toilet.
It's not jus there lor, it's everywhere! I've been looked at (at the very wrong place, yet again) today while i was peeing in Citylink's toilet. Wrong choice of urinal i've made and beside me was a gay who LOVES to look at other guys' dick. And having the fact tat he didn't do it discreetly, or rather do it openly in a way tat u know tat for sure, he is gay, is uber disturbing. Not to elaborate too much though. 'They' are actually everywhere. Kinda like in most of the toilets beside the MRT stations. Diaoz. For more in dept story, do kindly follow tis link to stomp: http://singaporeseen.stomp.com.sg...mrt_toilets_used_as_gay_hangouts_says_stomper.html

New headline number 3: PSI index showing good air condition.
I think tat is really bullshit. If the air is really tat good then y does it smell like ppl are burning incense paper everyday? Worst still it smelled like they are burning in front of ur face. There were occasions where i wanted to jog outside but didn't as the air condition seemed to bad for exercising. There's this image tat came to my mind here i might b lost in tat think fog or we had all gone into silent hill for a tour of our lifetime. There was tis guy who had also posted a qn on why is the current PSI update every 24hrs instead of 4 and also he suggested tat the people or organisation tat is in-charge of of updating the PSI shd install more of the so-call smoke detection thingy so as to accurately inform us how 'bad' the air is. One more thing, all of us are currently passive smokers thanks to the forest fire so SMOKERS PLEASE STOP CONTRIBUTING TO THE AMOUNT OF BAD AIR WE ARE INHALING ALREADY!!!

News headline number 4: Angry taxi driver and the pissed passenger
This kinda reminded me of my sis's incident -> http://singaporeseen.stomp.com.sg...cabby_misses_turn_then_calls_me_bastard.html

What is the world coming to...?

Girls and their prerogative

There's a saying tat girls are made up of tears, no doubt tis is like 98% true. 1% of those who doesn't cry goes to butches and the other 1% had their tear duct surgically removed. Too bad boys' tear ducts shift to the lining just above their stomach when puberty starts. So even if we had any grieves, people cannot see them.

The story happened in the office when my female colleague (i shall name her 'X') was too eager to get me and another male colleague (i shall name him 'Y')into the server room to clear up some space for the incoming stocks that were delivered over. So while i was doing some typing using the laptop tat was on my lap and she took it away with one of her hand being 1cm away from my crotch. I didn't know why she did tat but tat kinda created a small hoo-haa tat i can use to tease her about, which i said something like she took away my 'first time'.

Of cos, i didn't do tat in-front of everyone cos i tot it might b embarrassing for herself and me for making a fool out of myself so i did it in the server room where there were only a few of the office people whom i am more familiar with. This is the part where i am really puzzled with, i acted like i'm crying at the very 3rd time and her face changed and following that she cried. Even though the other guy (named 'Z') said something more crude than me, i was labeled as the one who made 'X' cried. So girls cry = win, boys = always lose. I was too stunned by that and i realised tat "you can never guess what a girl wants" is undeniably truthful.

Being a man and having the fact tat Y didn't stop pestering me to ask me to apologised to her, i said tat i was "sorry for being so insensitive" when in actual fact i didn't know why she was so pissed at me made me felt like yet again, a piece of crap. Not sure whether she had accepted my "sincere apology" or not (and couldn't care more) but she told me i was being too annoying and she took it for real tat i really mind tat she nearly touched my important part, not forgetting to add tat everyone's patience has a limit. I guess she forgot i hav my own limit for ridiculous people as well. If she find tat my sarcasm is too unbearable, don't talk to me then. And i'm sorry to say tis but i don't think i hav to mute myself for anyone since tat's the way i am.

Not too long after tat unpleasant incident, my boss, as usual, asked me about y the server room was so messed up, y are the laptops everywhere, y tis and y tat. If she can make it up to a manager position, y can't she figure out her qns posted to me herself? I mean i don't usually go in there, i don't use that room as much as others, i've tried to ask Z to clear the old stocks so that the server room can at least look like a real server room instead of a garbage dump, the server room had been cleaned up by 2 other colleagues and myself before CNY, i had really done my part as a desktop support and a maria already, y is tat the mess created by others is ALWAYS my fault? The communications issue had always been a problem and hell knows who put all the freaking laptops lying around, so wat's so surprising when my ans is most of the time 'donno, donno and more donnos'?

I guess the only person in the office whom i can look up upon is colleague 'K'. She did all the shit job with us, she showed others respect regardless of rank, she is just like a big sister who will be there whenever u need any help.

If i hav a wish, i would wish tat all the weird ppl will b sent to Venus, cos tat's where females were supposedly from.

Begone evil spirits, BEGONE!

Care-less and hack care

A lot of times i feel very lucky to be a guy. Being a male, we are suppose to show others a masculine side, not being wishy-washy, not overly sensitive and sometimes being nonchalant to others not because we don't care but because it's non of our concern. There's no reward for being a nosy parker and no one would ever be grateful to u for helping them to 'spread the message'.

Of cos, i wasn't talking bout myself, jus saying tis becos of my female colleague. She was being really reluctant to tell us wat is bothering her as her distressed was somehow caused by another guy colleague recently. In the previous 'n' hrs, i've adopted the don't-care-don't-wanna-know kind of attitude while she was there complaining/ranting tat it's disturbing her yet she can't tell us wat had happened. If she was a guy, i would had ask him to change his sex. Then again, perhaps being wishy-washy is one of the privilege of being a female?

The other incident was tat i was 'suaning' one of my male colleague too much tat he took it personal and tot of it as an insult. One good thing tat i feel of being old is tat older people will hav higher EQ, seems tat way to me though.

I'm feeling so tired now a days tat i don't really feel like doing anything but sleep. Giv me more time please!!! zzzzzzzzzzzzz