What do you want? Dream or Reality?

End of March is coming and it means one thing; application for SIM is closing. Yet i'm still lost. Lost for what i want in my life.

Probably deep inside i've already know from the start what i want, even though it's a dream and probably yet again it is quite impossible to be fulfilled. After living for so long on earth, it is clear to me now that being hardworking isn't the only element needed to make impossible possible.

No doubt school life is fun but i wouldn't want to get a degree for the sake of getting one. I know i will suffer if i choose to go back to IT becos i've already lost interest in it. I wouldn't wan to follow my cousin's footstep where he chose to study something tat is totally not relevant to wat he had studied in his poly, perhaps becos he jus want the degree for his life in the future. I'm not here to criticise his life or anything but i really hope that he won't waste his parents' money since his school fees are fully paid for by them. In my case, i don't hav the luxury of abusing tis system so it's kinda like i'm choosing my lifelong partner who will b living with me for the rest of my life, and the word divorce will not b found in my dictionary. Same thing goes to studies, i wanna make sure i'm not wasting anymore of my precious time so that i can make full use of it while i'm still young (definition of young in my context: able to move, talk and do things without any restriction).

Wat shd i do? Wat can i really do tis time...?