Emo freaking...like?

Guess in life there's always interesting things happening making it entertaining and mayb over entertaining till a point that u find it alittle overboard, that's when things goes wrong and everything will just become a bad joke. It's not always smooth sailing in life and like wat my Ninja OC used to say, 'What doesn't kill you, makes you stronger'. Be it emotionally or physically, there will sure b times when u felt that u r so vulnerable and tired tat u can't go on anymore. That's when we hav to take it as another step to growing up and that is y i hav started hating my birthday and not celebrating it when i realised tat it's THE day that reminds u tat, 'Hey, u r officially 1 yr older, start carrying more responsiblities onto ur load!'.

For me, ever since i've been in NS, i've learnt to b able to b more independent mentally, tat's wat i think though, hopefully. It's thru those stupid shitty incidents tat makes me feel tat ppl are always not trustworthy, even though they might b ur friends, u could never know wat they think while putting on their mask to protect themselves since everyone is afraid to get hurt. It's because of tis i've decided not to hav 'BFFs' like how Ben used to hav and is still having, lol. Ironically, it's better to hav a good friend than a best friend since u can let go of all ur feelings e-zier rather than to hav a hard time getting over something senseless. Might b b'cos of tat bad experience, or those bad experiences tat changes my belief?

People tends to forget things, things tat seems rather not important but is important to people aroudn them. This happens when people take things for granted. Might b accidental or mayb on purpose since they think tat it's a 'I-CARE-FOR-MYSELF' world out there and so they might as well adapt to it. If they don't appreciated it, they will lose it eventually, whatever the 'it' is to them. For me, my 'it' is my family, i always loved them but doesn't really seems to spend much time with them either, quality time though, donno how and helplessly clueless. Well, had a funny feeling when my mommy says tat my face got alittle rounder just now, it's a good and bad news for me though; good news i've grown a little meaty so ppl won't say i'm thin, bad news is, i'm fat. LOL.

Finally, to sum up, did CQ duty during the last 3 days duty, freaking tiring. Went to play LAN with XZ, Mel, BZ, Gong, JJ, Max, JS, EK and LS for 4hrs, total cost $9 and a cab fee of $18.20 to my HSH (Home Sweet Home). Feeling so broke even though i've gotten the GST offset from our dear dear government. Saded. Hope things goes well in camp till ORD. Bleah~