Game of life

Like wat the cliché suggests, 'life is short, live it to the fullest', so how 'full' can one live it to? Quoting from "Twilight", 'When you can live forever what do you live for?'. I would definitely live for my dreams, fulfilling it while finding satisfaction in them.

There are many things in life tat once you missed it, you will never get it back. B it chance, youth, feelings or actions. Consequences as result of any actions may change a person's belief and/or thought, making them someone different in the later part of their life. Things tat happened in my childhood changed me, my thoughts and perspective towards my life. Something tat i can't forget but kinda accepted it, even though it had more or less became a scar tat won't fade away. Then again, if there were no such unhappiness, would i still b the same person i am now?

I guess being the outcast who was desperately and constantly trying to hav friends around makes me really sick of my own behavior, cos it jus wasn't right. Sometime it is jus best to b alone, to listen to yourself without any influence from others.

I can see though, if having a chance to live a "second life", my life might turn into something disastrous as well if i choose to live it differently from the start of my secondary school life based on my personality; i will join a uniform group CCA, most probably Boys Bridget (there's a story behind it), try very hard to become a high ranking cadet (if tat's wat they call themselves) and become a very proud member. I will want attention from others rather than me seeking helplessly from my so-call friends (if i managed to hav them). Get a girlfriend to show off or i would say another source of attention. Get enrolled into a polytechnic and starts clubbing, wasting time and money. Break up with old girlfriend and find a new one, probably a better and prettier one since the confidence encourages me to do so. Tries to be at least a sgt after getting enlisted into army and torture my man around. And the story goes on and on, which i supposed won't end up anywhere good since it jus revolves within attention seeking and being able to control people/situations.

At tis point of time in my game of life, i'm at a straight road tat will eventually lead me to yet another crossroad, leading to 'Study', 'Being complacent' or 'Something else'. Although the 'Study' seemed more promising, i might go for wat my heart chose long ago which is doing something different, to know if i can really take up the challenges.