To me, April is like a month of joy, fun and of course, mischief. Starting off the month with April fool's day where people get pranked on or them being the prankster themselves.
Well, i've always treated April as my month for a very simple reason even though i don't "celebrate" it like how i used to in the past. That day should b a special day when you celebrate with ur love ones, or should i say spend the day with ur love ones.
I was chatting with my sis a few days back and we found tat we had something in common, we can kinda count our friends using all the fingers tat grow on our palms (we had excess though where we don't need). "Friends" being defined as someone whom you will b comfortable to trash talk, to say out things u won't say in-front-of others (of cos not bitching about others!), to b able to b there for each other, etc. I mean it's not our fault to hav so little friends in our life, mayb we jus haven't meet them yet. People change and will jus walk in and out of ur life, it's perfectly normal and i guess it's inevitable as well jus like how i silently walk out of others life (those people i can't 'clique' with tat is).
What's coming up next in the few days time will b watching "Detroit: Metal City" alone (since everyone seem so reluctant to watch), my pay day, follow by a hopefully-not-so-disastrous ubin outing with parents and their friends :( and my IPPT, hopefully can get a silver though. Time to go Bugis to pray pray.
My month doesn't really seem like a really joyous month to me tis year though, wat's worst than spending my special day with strangers. Which reminded me about the fateful day few years ago when i was in poly, celebrating with some guy (he was invited by my classmate and i don't even remember his name now) i didn't invite and got to know for only a few hours, mayb? The feeling jus sux, plan foilers coming from everywhere to disrupt every single plan i've made. I don't even know which is right anymore, to make others happy and try to b blend in or jus make sure tat u are the only who will b enjoying urself. Felt so sick these days. Argh!
Of all the things i 'lied' about today, one thing tat is for sure and true is tat i really need a break, to leave tis place and find somewhere to cool off, to reflect upon myself and rethink the things tat i deemed as problems. After all, i'm an adult now and will b reaching middle age in another decade or so.
p.s of cos, even though i don't celebrate my b'day it doesn't mean i can't receive presents, haha, who would mind?
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