Sick&Tired

It's been a crazy week starting from new yr's eve until now. Internet was down, disappointment had been experienced but at least good times and fun moments were there as well.

To start off, with everyone else pang seh-ing on new year's eve gathering, i've had a really good chat with kah lun, the only one who turned up, who will soon-to-be a groom tml as well as a dad in approximately 5 more months to go. I really glad to hav someone whom i can pour my heart out to when it seems like everyone else in ur social circle had deserted you for some reason. I strongly believe tat 1 sincere friend beats 100 or even 1000 acquaintances.

Next up was new yr's 1st day, a pleasant surprise at my grandma's house when her sold-off child (my supposed-uncle) turned up to celebrate new year's day with his wife and daughter. Even though there won't be a true reunion every year at her place but this year had been the most happening year for her, i guess.

Then came my planned new year's opening house at my place. Sent out invitations and had confirmation from 15 people but only 12 turned up (1 was sick so still excusable, 2 pang seh-ed). The only 2 things i hav to say is that i am very guilty tat i've made my mom and sis worked so hard for me in the kitchen, for letting my mom cook so much food but wasted 1 full tray of beehoon and a whole pot of curry. The other thing is tat I AM SO FUCKING PISSED WITH THOSE WHO TEXTED ME AT THE VERY LAST MINUTE SAYING THAT THEY WILL NOT BE COMING, PLEASE DO NOT TEST MY PATIENCE! If i am going to offend you, so be it. I AM TRUELY DISAPPOINTED WITH YOU MEI LENG, is tat how a friend shd b treated? Am i such a insignificant friend/acquaintance/someone tat you can jus brush me off with reason like you overslept and need to go for ur own activity after tat. 'Sorry' doesn't work all the times, seriously. don't think tat i will ever wanna make an effort to ask you out for anything again. i doubt you will even know my blog existed anyways and i am seriously sick and tired of being taken for granted. Many thanks for those who had turned up (even for only a short while) as well as those who made an effort to inform me early tat you won't be able to make it.

I bet everyone or anyone will hav someone in their life whom they had dislike/hate tat seemed to had formed a scar somewhere in ur memory. It's like walking on the street and then hav to pretend tat you don't know tat person. 'They' are far worst than a stranger becos we all know tat 'they' are people who had left tat scar behind which can't be removed.

To conclude, wat doesn't kill you makes you stronger, how will we grow up without all tat 'scarring' made by people around us?